Confession: 17 years of ‘mothering fails’

I have a seventeen year old daughter, she's in her final year of high school. Next year my Miss 17 is off to see the world on a gap  year. My baby girl is a woman. Every day I'm amazed that she's all grown up, it blows me away. Before she was born I read every book available on having children. I wanted to parent 100% spot on. No parenting fails for me. It didn't quite work out like the perfect … [Read more...]

But how do I change my behaviour?

So you really want to change? You feel down in the dumps, flatlining at the end of the day, it was a tough day, most days are and you get through them. We all have bad days, some people have absolutely horrific days everyday. My perception of my bad day, will not match yours. They are non comparable. There are far too many factors making us who we are alongside our own personal situation to … [Read more...]

21 Days of Tiny Steps to a Happier Me

Any type of behavioural change takes time. There are some truly amazing people that can decide to change something and can do it overnight. I am not one of these. My head is full of wonderful intent yet  lacking the go and get them attitude when it comes down to the crunch. I can beat myself up over pretty much anything and the words "It's my fault" replay in my head on a daily basis. The irony … [Read more...]

Motherhood – Totally Unprepared and I still am!

Motherhood - Totally Unprepared!   Nothing in the world can prepare you for Motherhood.  No matter what you read or get told. There are not enough adjectives, verbs or nouns to describe Motherhood. I remember very clearly when one of my best friend from school had her first baby. My beautiful, super organised, glamourous girlfriend; opening the front door, looking absolutely petrified, … [Read more...]

Mummy is putting on her big pants

 Mummy is putting on her big pants I am putting on my big pants, you know the ones you save for certain times of the month, or the ones you wear because they feel ever so comfy and hold you all in,  well I'm putting those big pants on for a while. Tuesday is surgery day. Apparently I will swell up big time. I'll be away from home anyway between 5 to 10 days, then recouping for six weeks. My in … [Read more...]

Alzheimer’s; The long goodbye “I love you mum”

Alzheimer's; The long goodbye "I love you mum"   As many of you have shared my journey with my mother and her Alzheimer's I want to thank you all so very much from the whole of my heart for all your support, your beautiful messages, the gorgeous flowers, the heartfelt written cards, messages and comments and the very thoughtful gifts. The blogging community of inspiring friends has come … [Read more...]

Overloaded…Overwhelmed… Over It…

Overloaded... Overwhelmed... Over It... Forty days have passed since my mother moved into high care and the world continues. Forty days since I last blogged and the world continues. Forty days it has taken me to feel OK. If you pass me on the street I look OK, if you speak to me I sound OK because what you cannot see with your eyes I am dealing with inside. That is my emotional mechanism and what … [Read more...]